You can't please all the people all the time. Someone left a couple of shitty comments after yesterday's entry, (immediately deleted) which pissed me off.
Have you ever felt low, self absorbed, angry, pissed off, unsatisfied, sorry for yourself at any time in your life ? If so, when you next feel shitty. Write down exactly what's in your head and then reread it. Nasty viewing huh? Like it came from someone else. That's exactly what yesterday's blog was. It doesn't define me or my life. It was a snapshot in time. But in the interests of making this blog credible I didn't edit or gloss over my feelings. If nothing else it's got to be honest what I'm like on that particular day, even hour. If I'm at my self absorbed & negative worst. It's going in.
If I'm feeling a little self absorbed, down and off beat this week. So what?
The cunt who left a comment saying I sounded like a wining girl and to 'man up' & 'get a grip' and that 'I am a pathetic little talker not walker' is a prick. I'm allowed to say those things about myself they're not. I'd love them to leave such helpful comments to people with depression or mental illness. 'Get a grip', or 'pull yourself together' no doubt is their attitude. They probably read the Daily Mail aswell.
They show a complete lack of understanding or irony. Again they suggested going to Help the Aged to get out of self obsession. I believe it's the same person who took offence at my talking about masturbation, wanking and other male bodily habits. Oh my god it's clearly someone lamenting the loss of Points of View and instead of sending narrow minded right wing unfunny hysterical letters to the BBC they have taken to leaving semi abusive comments on this blog instead.
My advice. Go and read Heat magazine or fuck off to Help the Aged you're so widely concerned with me helping. I'm sorry did you not read my entries form Jan, Feb,March, April, May, June & July?
Did you not read me helping someone through a horrific relapse over a period of weeks? Did you not read about me doing the London marathon for Action on Addiction and raising £3k? Did you not read about helping my family through the protracted illness and death of the matriarch, my Grandmother. You didn't read the Eulogy I gave, or indeed the person who went to AA to do something about their drinking after reading this 'wining girl blog'
Oh sorry but you must have missed the people sending comments saying they to feel down, depressed, shitty, life is hard or it's just great to read someone willing to risk sounding like a wining girl to expose their negative thinking. It gives people permission to air their own insecurities and think, 'it's OK not to be perfect'.
No I bet you didn't you anonymous fuck. Either man up yourself and lay your fucking credentials down on the table as to how much of a great textbook human being you are, or fuck the fuck off you fucking fuck (Thank god for my English Degree. Dr Donaldson would be so proud)
Dr Evans prescribes a long look in the mirror before casting judgments. I should know as I have made judgments so many times on people when a) I was totally wrong and b) I didn't have my own house in order. When I do that I'm on very dangerous moral ground.
I suppose I can't complain. If i put it out there in the open I am fair game for dodgy comments. I shouldn't be so sensitive. But when you feel low and bare your soul only to get a gutless arrogant little comment it annoys me.
Who the fuck are they? And who's worse. Me for writing like a wining girl or the knobhead who actually spends time in their day reading it in order to send in a superior scathing comment. No doubt it's someone who doesn't like me. I suggest they get a bit of God and acceptance in their life. Either that or go and get laid. It's clear they are dryer than the Middle East.
How can someone bother to send a comment criticising my character based out of a daily blog? I write with tongue firmly in my cheek. Play up to a characteristic and then exaggerate to make the writing process more vivid. Are they that stupid and humourless they can't see it. They clearly went on Jim'll Fix it Years ago and got more than they bargained for. How's about that then guys and gals?
Grip taken today. £2 was given to trick or Treaters tonight. I dare not say trick in Hounslow otherwise I wouldn't have had any slate left on my roof or wheels on my car. Still at least the kids made an effort wearing skeleton masks, though it may have been malnutrition from the lack of vegetables in their diet. I couldn't tell. It was dark.
It was also a full moon, which always makes people a little loopy. 7-5 to Arsenal against Reading in the league Cup is all the evidence you need.
And so another month closes. Can you really believe it is November already? It seems like yesterday it was the Olympics. Now we're gearing up for Christmas. Scary.
Hurricane Sandy has blown itself out. 60 people dead in the Caribbean and 33 in USA & Canada. 3 minutes TV coverage of the Caribbean in the past 3 days & 1 newspaper column. Wall to wall coverage and front page news in all newspapers for New York & USA. Seems a little unbalanced to me.
The strange thing is after the Japanese Tsunami & all the disaster movies we are a little de-sensitised to pictures of devastation. The media warned that it would be Armageddon. really? Well I've seen it all before. 'Armagedon','Independance Day' & '2012' have already been there.
It was bad of course and for the 90 odd people who lost their lives in it and to their families, it's tragic. God bless them.
But was it really worthy of all that media coverage? Transport system shut down, power cuts, roads not passable and raw sewage on the streets. Sounds a little like Hounslow to me.
Anyway it's Comedy Chops tomorrow. I have felt so disconnected and out of sorts recently that I've done no writing or planning for this one. It will be a case of turn up on the day and winging it. My goal for tomorrow is to try and keep my smoking under 100 and diet coke consumption under 5 litres. The fear and anxiety tends to take off on comedy night.
Still to comfort myself I can always turn to my mystery commentator & read their gentle words of encouragement and human kinship. Thank you for reading. Thank you for commentating. I apologise for being rude and angry and abusive in this blog but sometimes some of us are not perfect human beings. One can only strive for such magnificence the mystery reader clearly has.
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xx
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ReplyDeleteWow - so much hatred and arrogance, well done.
DeleteEr 1 - I don't ever recall styling myself as unique or amazing in anyway during my preamble, blog or head.
2 - I have certainly never positioned myself as remarkable. Though we all are in our own little way. Even you.
3 - I am am over myself. I suggest you gget over me too. heed your own advice.
4 - Porn scripts are not written with dialogue or scripts. Not the good ones anyway
I sincerely hope you have a great day and thank you for such constructive comments.
Anonymous, why are you so angry? You act like this blog is about you. Does it hit too close to home? Is that why you're so bitter? I don't understand why you even read this blog when all you do is criticize it. You seem to have an issue with Nick. Why not act like a grownup and give him a call. Maybe you could sort out your issues without all this drama. Hiding behind an anonymous post is cowardly and juvenile.
ReplyDeleteMany thanks. That explains it all now. You are quite right you are entitled to express an opinion in a public forum and to remain anonymous. I'm pleased it's sparked debate.
ReplyDeleteI agree to some extent. People who are continually self piteous and negative are difficult to be around and listen to for long periods of time. Too much exposure can lead to mass homicide or suicide. However it is a human emotion as valid as any other, the key is what you do with it. To belittle it & demonise it is dangerous ground. What if we did that to every destructive emotion or feeling?
It is annoying when people simply will not or cannot try to change and remain locked in self. But that is part of some people's human condition and battle to change.
Expressing the words 'dear' is condescending and also coming across as pieous and humourless makes you appear ugly and sanctimonious, even though what you say is interesting and valid.
If you are a public figure I hope to shit you're not in power, politics or authority otherwise we're all doomed. Maybe you are the editor of the Daily Mail. However sorry to disapoint you. We are all public figures and by the very nature we are indeed 'public'.
The irony of you saying for me to 'get over myself' and 'I am not unique' is wonderful seeing as you are basically saying that you are, because you're a public figure. Making you not only sanctimonious but a hypocrite aswell. You are clearly English. Well done.
Also you say that people who display self pity and selfishness tend to make others unhappy. Another lovely irony is that your comments have had exactly that effect, judging by some tweets and comments of your comments.
It kind of shows the hypocrisy, lack of humour & humility public figures have. I hope your not Dr Phil
I shall stop these tit for tat comments now but thanks for creating debate and depsite my tone I welcome what you're saying as it is clearly well thought out and based on intellectual fact. I would reconsider how you position it though.
Get in there Nick.
ReplyDeleteWarts and all, I am thoroughly getting into reading your blog every evening....all good stuff..
Keep at it...
Xx
You don't like it up you, do you? Whoever suggested going out and visiting a few old folk was spot on. Go to a few less of those pathetic meetings with all those neurotics and moaners. Treat yourself to a decent meal. You are far too scrawney.........Will you be telling your paying audience at the comedy club that you couldn't be arsed to prepare anything for the once a month gig?.......Remember, if you put yourself out in the public domain, wanks and all, expect some flack. By the way, I think there are at least three anonymous commentators here......Go on a dating site and get yourself a girlfriend....or a boyfriend? xxx
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ReplyDeleteI think the term 'ex alcoholic' says it all now. Best get to a meeting or two and concentrate on your own journey. I have no doubts I've a long way to go. I've never said anything different. I'm certainly not cured.
ReplyDeleteAlcoholism isn't just about the drinking and you just sound bitter to me. Still good luck and many thanks for the itellectual points scoring, I hope it makes you happy. Have a smashing day xx