Day 109 - Back to Normal

Back to normal today after the long Bank Holiday weekend that stretches out ahead of you like a long straight road, only for it to be over as soon as it started.


Back to reality;

• Awake with good intentions of  early morning exercise. Set alarm for 5.30am. Switch alarm off. Wake at 7am. Good start to the week.
• Set 5 minute alarm for meditation, switch off at 3 mins 30 seconds. Head busy.
• Reach work a little late. Miss a meeting. Wracked in fear.
• Work steadily throughout the day determined not to let the fear creep into everything else.
• Mask fear with incessant tea drinking and productivity
• Attend networking event when the head said, 'go home'. Well done.
• Send text to young lad in pain saying 'thinking of you' - good deed for day. Feel good about that.
• Attend networking event with head in overdrive. Make notes. Unusually interested. Professional
• Leave at 8pm, with a woman complementing me on my shoes. Didn't have the heart to tell them they're cheap from one of 'those shops' on Tottenham Court Lane. She was Nigerian.
• Awkward conversations with two people I love. Strained. Is it me or them?
• Good conversation with sponsee. I like speaking to fellow lunatics. Makes me feel better. Hate small talk.
• Get home. Do more work. Head busy. How to switch off? No answer.

That's it. Hardly worth writing let alone reading was it? Oh to be a champion blogger today. To be fair though, at least I managed to mask the fear and carry on as a somewhat 'normal' person. Success. Night


Together We Are Stronger


Nicholas Evans